So... this is only sort of an update, I guess.

You guys already know that I have been accepted to Sac State and will be receiving Financial Aid. You also know that I have this mysterious boyfriend that I mention but have never given too many details on. So... I suppose it's time for that.

Most of you probably know my boyfriend's name is Ray. I'm sure you've heard the name in some of my previous blogs, and some really old ones may not have been very favorable. So... this is the extremely condensed version of the story of me and Ray, with a little bit of background information on where I've lived during my life thrown in.

( I Summed It Up As Well As I Could, But It's Still Kind Of Long... )

I've been wondering when the best time to tell this story would be, and tonight, it just seemed to want to come out. Of course, there is a LOT more to it. Having known each other for so long, how could there not be more to it? But this should be enough to understand.

Hopefully, that brings you all up to speed. Feel free to ask questions though, if you have them! I'm finally ready to answer questions about us!

Title: Regrets
Author: hostilecrayon
Fandom: NANA
Pairing: Nobuo/Hachi
Rating: PG
Warnings: Angst, Spoilers for up to the end of the anime/manga Chapter 84.
Disclaimer: Nana is property of Ai Yazawa, Cookie and Viz Media.
Word Count: 954
Notes: More ANGST. What can I say? It’s what I do best.

( Previous Parts )


( I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to stand on my own two feet, without someone there to let me rest when I get tired. )

Title: Regrets
Author: hostilecrayon
Fandom: NANA
Pairing: Nobuo/Hachi
Rating: PG
Warnings: Angst, Spoilers for up to the end of the anime/manga Chapter 84.
Disclaimer: Nana is property of Ai Yazawa, Cookie and Viz Media.
Word Count: 802
Notes: Not much to say. Hachi’s not feeling so good…


( Previous Parts )


( I really am a terrible person. )

Title: Regrets
Author: hostilecrayon
Fandom: NANA
Pairing: Nobuo/Hachi
Rating: PG
Warnings: Angst, Spoilers for up to the end of the anime/manga Chapter 84.
Disclaimer: Nana is property of Ai Yazawa, Cookie and Viz Media.
Word Count: 811
Notes: For those of you who have read the manga (and if you’re reading this, I’d hope you have…), you probably noticed the couple of side stories that occur. That’s what this is. Not really a chapter, and yet still part of the story. This is the Nobuo side story, and if this story goes on for a little while, there might end up being a Shinichi side story, too. Also, please note that there is not the traditional “Hey Nana” opening or ending because this is Nobuo’s point of view. That sort of opening is only for Hachi.

Part I
Part II
Part III
Part IV
Part V


( I guess you could say I’m a bit of a hopeless romantic. )

Title: Regrets
Author: hostilecrayon
Fandom: NANA
Pairing: Nobuo/Hachi
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Angst, Spoilers for up to the end of the anime/manga Chapter 84.
Disclaimer: Nana is property of Ai Yazawa, Cookie and Viz Media.
Word Count: 922
Notes: Mint says, and I quote, “Please don't let the next part be the ending! I want to read more from you!” So I blame it not ending yet on her. XD

Part I
Part II
Part III
Part IV


( Hey Nana, sometimes, when I dream, I see you sitting in the dining room of room 707, smiling at me like you used to back then. )

Title: Regrets
Author: hostilecrayon
Fandom: NANA
Pairing: Nobuo/Hachi
Rating: PG
Warnings: Angst, Spoilers for up to the end of the anime/manga Chapter 84.
Disclaimer: Nana is property of Ai Yazawa, Cookie and Viz Media.
Word Count: 1411
Notes: Wow, third piece of this story in one day. Now I want to sleep, as much as I’d like to write the next piece. Oh well. It probably won’t be too long until I write Part V. As long as my muse doesn’t run away with me, it’ll probably be the last piece. Probably. But we all know my muse, right? It never listens to me. Oh well. We’ll see.


Part I
Part II
Part III


( Do you still love me, Nana? )

Title: Regrets
Author: hostilecrayon
Fandom: NANA
Pairing: Nobuo/Hachi
Rating: PG
Warnings: Angst, Spoilers for up to the end of the anime/manga Chapter 84.
Disclaimer: Nana is property of Ai Yazawa, Cookie and Viz Media.
Word Count: 1,240
Notes: This goes out to Mint from fanfiction dot net, my only NANA fan so far!

This is Hachi dealing with her issues. Next chapter – character interaction! Horray!

Part I
Part II

( Hey Nana, despite everything that’s happened, I still believe in fate. )

Title: Regrets
Author: hostilecrayon
Fandom: NANA
Pairing: Nobuo/Hachi
Rating: G
Warnings: Angst, Spoilers for up to the end of the anime/manga Chapter 84.
Disclaimer: Nana is property of Ai Yazawa, Cookie and Viz Media.
Word Count: 943
Notes: I have too much love for Nobuo and Hachi to leave them hanging like this. So here we go, round two. …Which has turned into something that requires a round three. Why does everything I write try to turn into an epic?

This part there is very little Nobuo/Hachi, though this is building up to that. In this chapter, Hachi meets up with Shin to ask him a very important question.

Stay tuned! Part III soon!

Part I

( Hey Nana, the truth is, the reason I still wear the ring has nothing to do with Takumi. )

Title: Regrets
Author: hostilecrayon
Fandom: NANA
Pairing: Nobuo/Hachi
Rating: PG
Warnings: Angst Spoilers for up to the end of the anime/manga Chapter 84.
Disclaimer: Nana is property of Ai Yazawa, Cookie and Viz Media.
Word Count: 995
Notes: So Nana is on hiatus for a couple months… which kind of makes me want to cry. And since I’m sincerely rooting for a Nobuo and Hachi end result, and I couldn’t find much fanfiction on it, I wanted to write a fic. In the last episode of the series, and I believe chapter 42 in the manga, they show a piece of the future (or I guess technically the present…) where Hachi fills the bathtub for Nobuo and she has some memories about him, and when she turns to leave, he grabs her hand. There have been 42 more chapters and that hasn’t been explained yet… So I just kind of want to capture that moment somehow. Because at this rate, it could be another three years before I get an explanation. >.>; Since it only comes out once a month and they’ve announced a few months’ hiatus… Here’s my crack at it. Also, the ring comment comes from a later chapter in the manga where Junko asks Hachi if she’s going to get a divorce, since Takumi and Hachi separated. (No, I have no idea how the timeline actually fits together, so I made it fit my convenience, of course. Which, I suppose, makes this a Divergence and/or a TWT – Timeline, What Timeline?)

I might write a sequel. It’s actually kind of intended to have a sequel, so I probably will.

( Would it make you happy, Nana? )

....So....


Aid Year


Award Description Category Offered Accepted
Direct Unsubsidized Loan 1 Loan 3,073.00 3,073.00
Direct Subsidized Loan 1 Loan 5,500.00 5,500.00
Federal Work Study Work/Study 3,000.00 3,000.00
Cal Grant B (Access) Grant 1,551.00 1,551.00
Cal Grant B (Fees) Grant 3,354.00 3,354.00
Federal Pell Grant Grant 5,350.00 5,350.00
Aid Year Totals 21,828.00 21,828.00


Terms

Fall 2009 View Scheduled Disbursement Dates

Award Description Category Offered Accepted
Direct Unsubsidized Loan 1 Loan 1,537.00 1,537.00
Direct Subsidized Loan 1 Loan 2,750.00 2,750.00
Federal Work Study Work/Study 1,500.00 1,500.00
Cal Grant B (Access) Grant 776.00 776.00
Cal Grant B (Fees) Grant 1,677.00 1,677.00
Federal Pell Grant Grant 2,675.00 2,675.00
Term Totals 10,915.00 10,915.00

Spring 2010 View Scheduled Disbursement Dates

Award Description Category Offered Accepted
Direct Unsubsidized Loan 1 Loan 1,536.00 1,536.00
Direct Subsidized Loan 1 Loan 2,750.00 2,750.00
Federal Work Study Work/Study 1,500.00 1,500.00
Cal Grant B (Access) Grant 775.00 775.00
Cal Grant B (Fees) Grant 1,677.00 1,677.00
Federal Pell Grant Grant 2,675.00 2,675.00
Term Totals 10,913.00 10,913.00



I just about had a heart attack. My jaw just fell open. I was with Tiara and I looked at her, I looked at the screen, I looked at her... and I said... Do I... Do I get THAT?

The answer is yes, yes I do.

( SCHOOL MONIES IS MY FRIEND )

Somehow, I managed to have a pretty decent conversation with a Japanese person I met on Skype! And we talked about Aliens! hahahaha

I'm so excited, I wanted to share!

Ta Da!

( Why Were We Talking About Aliens? )

This is actually pretty old. I'm just kind of wondering if I should continue this or what. I really love this pairing, but I've never written it. It's just an idea I'm tinkering with...


Title: Dying for You (Working Title)
Author: hostilecrayon
Pairing: Ichigo/Renji/Ichigo
Rating: G for now
Warning: AU-ish. It’s AU-ish because the Soul Society Arc happened… but this kinda ventures off from there on its own little romantic timeline. I’d call it divergence, but… it doesn’t really affect the main storyline. I mean, I guess it does a little bit… but whatever. Heh. So… divergence. I guess. I’d say spoilers for maybe… up to episode 60 or so.
Disclaimer: I don’t own the badassedness that is Bleach. That honor goes to Tite Kubo, Shonen Jump and Viz Media.
Notes: I usually start out my fanfiction with an attention-getting paragraph, or a hook. This fanfic… not so much. This is a much calmer story than I usually do, and it is based entirely in the realm of subtlety.

( Renji was starting to think he needed a vacation. )

Man, I can't wait until I have enough money to pay for my LJ again. I miss my layout and my like 110 icons. X.x

So our company is still in the process of switching to a new company, so there's no work right now. I decided this is the perfect time to catch up on Bleach - which I was ridiculously behind in. After getting through the grueling filler, I watched the Past Arc, and then everyone is lined up to fight... and then... as they're about to fight... THE END. I watched almost 100 episodes in three days to get to a 'all the good stuff... next time". >.>; So I decided to check out the manga - I'm incredibly impatient - and find out what happened.

*** For those not interested in my Bleach happiness, skip to the next set of ***

The following three pages simply personifies why Bleach not only continues to shock and amaze me, but also makes me go - Damn, this is so bad ass. For those of you worried about spoilers, this is from Chapter 323, but it's one of the more minor fights. I'll tell you what though, I always thought Kira was a pansy. I was WRONG.

( My Jaw Dropped - Really. Beware Spoilers - Bleach Manga 323 )

There is other, even more bad ass stuff concerning Ichigo, but just in case the curious take a peek here, I don't want to spoil anything big - especially not that. I'll be most interested when this stuff finally shows up in anime form. *Has trouble understanding what's going on in Manga*

***

So... I sent an e-mail to the head of the Japanese Department at Sac State (The Uni I'm going to next semester, in case anyone forgot) and it appears there is a test I have to take to get into Japanese 3 (Called Japanese 2A at Sac State, meaning intermediate level part A) which isn't too much of a problem, but I really hope I can spend some time studying the kanji and vocab - they appear to have a lot of stuff I didn't learn. However, she said that if I did well with the Nakama textbook, I shouldn't have much of a problem with passing the Genki test - that's the book I'll be using and also where the placement exam comes from. I'm still nervous though, because I don't know what to focus on and though I have a kanji and vocab list, there isn't a grammar list online and I can't afford the book right now. I know a lot of grammar that was supposed to be in Nakama 2, the book for Delta College's Japanese 3, so I should be okay, since I'm sure a lot of what I didn't learn in the first two classes will be covered by what I've learned in addition to J1 and J2, HOPEFULLY filling in most of the differences in teaching styles between the two textbooks.

*Breathes out a little mushroom cloud* Did you get all that? ...It even sounds confusing to me.

ANYWAY, she also invited me to the Japan Club's Culture Night, which is basically an all day festival that's free. <3 I've called Tyler and Tiara, and Tyler sounds like he'll go and Tiara is thinking about it. I called Bobek, too, but she didn't answer, and I hate leaving messages. >.>; It's at the school and I really want to go, like... really really want to go. Here's the proposed schedule from what she sent me:

***Program Overview***
National Anthem America & Japanese
Yosakoi Dance Performance
Singing: Sukiyaki song (ue wo muite aruko)
Japanese Language Program video
Performance by Martial Art club
Koto and Shakuhachi (Japanese traditional music) performance by special guests
- Intermission -
Dance performance: Oha Rock + Parapara + Won't Be Long
Japanese folk dance by Minyo Tanoshimi Kai
Fashion Show
Super Dope Ending

Super Dope Ending, eh? Sounds fun. XD I really want to get back on track with my studies. I knew if I took this semester off, I wouldn't learn anything. >.>; I'm really excited though! I love school!

Mmm... Sacramento. I really love this place. Even if there are a bunch of shady people I used to know living here. =P

So... I moved in with my mom. Most of you have no idea why that is great, but let's just say that the last place came with more problems then I could really handle...

Of course, now I have a whole new set of problems...

However, I think these problems are completely surpassable. ^.^

I have a job... I work 60+ hours a week, six days a week. But right now we're switching companies and I'm terribly sick, so I have a week off. What do I do? Well, I sell Comcast door to door as a contractor. It's completely commission, but in about two weeks of work, I've made over 700 dollars - and that's doing really poorly, since I still don't know what I'm doing. My manager is happy though, and thinks I'm catching on. He's convinced that I'm going to make a whole lot of money really soon. I haven't been paid yet, but I have four paychecks guaranteed coming to me starting on the 24th, and I get paid every week! So that's awesome. Tiara and I worked together for a while, but she had to quit due to health problems. We talk pretty much everyday though. ^.^ Also, just a side-note, my bosses are AWESOME. I mean really, Tiara and I are thinking about hanging out with them outside of work - and they're all for it.

I've reapplied to Sac State, and will actually be going this next semester, since I now live in Antelope - a city very near Sacramento. God, being home again. It's both amazing and a little terrifying. I think it won't hit me until I run into someone I used to know, or at least get a car of my own. Traveling through certain parts of the city gets my blood going, though, heh.

I'd update more... but I have somewhere to be, so I'll update more later...

BTW, I just watched Ouran High School Host Club for the first time, and boy, do I love it. Two questions - is the Manga finished? And can anyone point me in the direction of any really awesome Tamaki/Haruhi fanfiction? <3

My forum is finally back in business.

The RPG Spot: Where There's Plenty of MP to Go Around

It's a forum mostly dedicated to both gaming and text-RP, and it's just now getting back on its feet. I'm ridiculously happy about this. Deliriously so. It also has creative writing and artwork sections, along with a place for editorials and video game articles. And of course, your standard General Discussion and Politically Incorrect sections.

It would be great to see more new members, if anyone is interested. We're such a tight-knit group that we don't get new members often, but we've recently integrated a couple of people, and I'm certainly hoping for more.

Gundam Wing: The Preventor Files

If anyone is interested in a post EW RP, head to the above link and sign up! I'd be happy to have some other fanfic writers playing.

Here is the base storyline. There is more information in the thread if you click the above link.

After Colony 197

Peace reigns in the Earth Sphere. Mobile Suits known as Gundams are never seen again, and mobile suits made for the purpose of war have become non-existent. The trade is being watched closely, and all sales of Gundanium and other strong metals are monitored closely. The organization called the Preventors is growing, filling first with soldiers who need to find their way in this unfamiliar time of peace and eventually with civilians as well. They are the eyes and the ears of the Earth Sphere Unified Nations, and they have a reputation of preventing wars before they have a chance to begin. The Earth Sphere begins to relax in the capable hands of the men and women working to keep the peace.

After Colony 200

Three years have passed in peace, and the Earth Sphere has become content. Politics no longer surround the ideas of war and are now more concerned with their own power struggles. The Preventors are underfunded and, in many places in the world, understaffed, but the ESUN will not make room for them in their already tight budget. Lady Une, the commander of the Preventors organization, fights whole-heartedly to be heard, but she achieves nothing. The Earth Sphere continues on, never knowing that their eyes and ears are stretched too thin to do the job they were there to do.

After Colony 206

The end of AC206 would mark a full decade of peace within the ESUN, but something is stirring, and the Preventors are far too stretched to grasp it fully. The USUN continues to ignore the demand for more funding, and Une has no choice but to send her top agents into the field to investigate firsthand. She hopes to put a stop to things before they get out of hand, but she doesn’t like the feeling she’s getting at all. With less than six months left before the ten year anniversary of peace in the Earth Sphere, she fears that there will not be anything left to celebrate.

Title: Xenophobic – Chapter 4
Author: hostilecrayon
Pairing: 1=2, 3=4, 5=R, 6=9
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Angst, romance, nakedness, AU with some Canon parallels
Disclaimer: Don't own it, sadly. Gundam Wing is owned by Hajime Yatate and Yoshiyuki Tomino.
Notes: This is the first time I’ve really worked with this many characters at a time. I hope it works. This is dedicated to aju_scenes for the wonderful writing they’ve continuously delivered.

Previous Parts:
Prologue
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3

( It was unbelievable that she had work for the weekend. )

Title: Capabilities
Author: hostilecrayon
Paring: 1=2
Rating: R (Language)
Warnings: Angst, Dark Humor, vague implied lemon
Word Count: 5990
Disclaimer: Still poor. Gundam Wing is owned by Hajime Yatate and Yoshiyuki Tomino.
Notes: This is the second installment in the sequel to the Growing Up Mini-Series – Still Growing: The Not-So-Mini-Series. *Glares at the plot bunny* You do not have to read the first in the series to understand what’s going on, but it helps. This is dedicated to merith, since she was the one who pushed me so hard for a sequel to what was supposed to be just a little 500 word one-shot. Also, for sunhawk16, whose Ion Arc continues to inspire me even after all these years. The Spacer/Ground-Bounder terms were borrowed from her fic. I’m not sure if they are her terms or not, as I’ve seen them in other fics as well, but since Ion uses these terms quite a lot, I give the credit to Sunhawk. Thanks to aki_midori for all her beta work and soul melting praise! Poke her with a stick and demand she write some GW fics! Her writing is amazing.

Previous Parts:
Be Careful What You Wish For

( I should have cut them both some slack. )

Still Growing: The Not-So-Mini-Series

Title: Be Careful What You Wish For
Author: hostilecrayon
Paring: 1=2
Rating: R (Language)
Warnings: Angst, Dark Humor
Word Count: 7075
Disclaimer: Still poor. Gundam Wing is owned by Hajime Yatate and Yoshiyuki Tomino.
Notes: This is the first installment in the sequel to the Growing Up Mini-Series, which can be found here. *Glares at the plot bunny* You do not have to read the first in the series to understand what’s going on, but it helps. This is dedicated to merith, since she was the one who pushed me so hard for a sequel to what was supposed to be just a little 500 word one-shot. Also, for sunhawk16, whose Ion Arc continues to inspire me even after all these years. The Spacer/Ground-Bounder terms were borrowed from her fic. I’m not sure if they are her terms or not, as I’ve seen them in other fics as well, but since Ion uses these terms quite a lot, I give the credit to Sunhawk. Thanks to aki_midori for all her beta work and soul melting praise! Poke her with a stick and demand she write some GW fics! Her writing is amazing.

( Routines can be a bitch, you know that? )

I didn't forget about you all. Xenophobic is half done, my beta promised Still Growing Part I back tomorrow, and I just sent her Still Growing Part II.

I feel productive! <3

Also, about The Growing Arc. I have decided it will be six pieces in all. They are as follows (in chronological order):

The Miracle of Life
Acting Like Children
Growing Up
Still Growing
Feeling Like a Kid Again
All Grown Up

Yes... my muses hate me. ^.^;; Is anyone excited?! I am... and daunted. Also! A poll about The Growing Arc. I've been seriously thinking about working on the prequels and posting those along with the current piece, Still Growing. To help you vote, The Miracle of Life is about how Heero and Duo got together, and Acting Like Children is about the break up that led to the original piece, Growing Up. Please vote, even if you don't answer the fill in the blank!

Poll #1292341 The Growing Arc
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All

Should I write the prequel while I write the sequels to Growing Up?

If I do write the prequels before finishing the sequels, should I...

Anything you'd like to see in The Growing Arc?